i always think that i'm getting better or that i'm okay, but i still always end up here. i still always end up feeling this way. why does it always loom back. why does it feel like i am never good enough for anything. it hurts so much.
it's just a cycle. i will feel fine in a few days, but soon enough it'll find its way back to me. i feel like i can't talk to anyone about it. i don't know how to open up like that, no one ever taught me. or maybe i used to be able to? and i just can't do it anymore. i think i've just trusted too many people who broke their promises to me, and now i don't know how to open up? even now, typing these words, i feel like i'm holding back. i can never tell if i'm being overdramatic or if this is a genuine mental health issue. i wish i could talk to someone about this. i'm tired of doing this alone. so tired.
