to help me cope

Hello, I guess I owe some explanation? I know no one reads this except me, but it has literally been a whole entire year since I have posted anything. I feel as if so much has happened since then - and I never wanted to post on here because I was afraid certain people would read it, but I don't care about that anymore. I can't believe what has happened if I am being honest. I used to write on here as a way with coping with my anxiety, but I was never really honest because I knew certain people would read it. Now, I don't care. But I think no one will read this anymore. It has been a long time. About two weeks after I did my last post, my life turned into actual hell. It took me such a long time to recover from that week, and I still have trouble with it every now and then. I think I have gotten better at communicating with others, and I have since been able to be around my friends without feeling uncomfortable. But I think my anxiety is still the same, and lately I think it is just getting worse. I don't know what to do about it anymore. It is starting to feel like I am stuck in an endless cycle. I mean, I am in a cycle. I do the same things every week, is this normal? Is it really? Because it sucks. My life is so much better now than it was a year ago today, but at the same time...there are some things I wish were different. There is not much I can do now I guess.